Here's a bible passage for you:  Luke Chapter 6, verse 45:

"A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringith forth that which is evil: for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh."

Dear sir, you have compared yourself to the crucified Christ--you bear no resemblance to the Christ I serve.  Evil brings forth evil, good brings forth good.