Some of you may recognize my moniker, as I have posted on this board quite a few times. I just wanted to write about some thoughts today pertaining to academic life at USM.
I have never seen a university in such troubled waters as USM is currently in, and the end doesn't seem to be anywhere near close. With summer quickly approaching and the IHL refusing to gave any real indication that it cares about what's going on here --- assuming first they're not involved in a conspiracy to "clean house" at USM --- the deterioration that began shortly after President Thames took office is only going to continue. I find it increasingly difficult to get any work (research) done at USM. The environment is exceedingly gloomy and, at times, downright poisonous. Many have responded be departing. It would be my guess that turnover rates at USM look more like those at a typical Marriott Courtyard than a typical national, research-oriented 4-year institution of higher learning. Obviously, I have not left, at least in the usual sense of the term, but soon may do so.
In another sense of the term, I am leaving. By that I mean setting up a home-office environment that is more conducive to scholarly productivity. Like the average consumer, I have all of the essentials --- a very good PC (better than the 10-year old one in my USM office), a laser printer, a copier, a scanner, a fax, cable Internet access, etc. I will be much more assured that my e-mails are not being monitored and that my phone converstations are not being recorded. Like many at USM, I usually work with more people from other universities than I do with people here. My contact with them is not altered by the fact that I'm situated a few miles further down Hardy Street.
But, both parties (USM and myself) do lose something in the process. I lose the opportunity for the "Eureka moment" regarding a research project that comes from impromptu, face-to-face discussion with quality scholars just down the hall from me. USM loses the "academic culture" that such a process fosters, a culture that is the sine qua non of first-class institutions. Like most faculty, my allegiance is to my discipline first, and my institution second (at best). Having said that, let me be clear in saying that I have argued for restoration of normality when and where I could, and in my own way. I will continue to do so. Let me also say that, sadly, I am quite certain that those I'm (we're) up against --- Roy Klumb, Scott Ross, etc. --- care much less about USM than I do, and I'm not from the state nor do I have any degrees from a university in the state. I would probably be willing to wager that I care more about USM than Robin Robinson, but I'm willing to wait for additional information before sounding more certain. Lastly on this matter, I'm even willing to entertain the possibility that USM is dearer to me than it is to Shelby Thames, despite what most people say ("He really does love USM, though"), because I would never do to my own alma mater what he is clearly doing to his. The way I see it is that USM is a money-making machine to him, and that's about all.
It is May 13th, and many departments are entertaining prospective candidates on campus even as I write, despite the fact that Tim Hudson claimed that the new class of 112 (more like 212 now) would be the most talented in USM history. They even harped on the notion that "we would get out into the market early to get the best and brightest," though, as I point out, it's almost June and we're scrambling for adjuncts and instructors at this point. Information is a wonderful thing, that is, unless you're USM's administrators having to field the questions that I suspect most of these candidates have been asking.
There is not much reason for cheer. Yesterday's PUC meeting was an exercise in futility. One thing I've heard 1,000 times if I've heard it once in the past 5 months is "you can't change people" (i.e., Dr. Thames, Tim Hudson, etc.). It's up to the IHL Board at this time to "change" the people running this institution. From where I sit, in my newly configured home office where I am once again working on a project I am excited about, there's little hope of that.
I think many of us feel exactly as you do. For our own sanity it is necessary to retreat in whatever way possible. For some of us, the only alternate seems to be to find employment elsewhere, and that is the route I am taking. I must say that when I accepted a position elsewhere (and a good one at that), I felt no great joy. I felt as if I had no choice. I feel, and continue to feel, a great sense of loss for what has happened at USM. And like you, I haven't gotten much research done this semseter.
Ironically, as I prepare to leave, I realize that the last two months have given me more appreciation of USM and the people who work here than the past five years. It's a cliche, I know, but sometimes you do really see the best in people when things are at their worst. As I've read this board, I've encountered people excited about their work, dedicated to giving the best to their students, and deeply committed to some of the same values that I hold dear, the values that led me to academia to begin with. It has been incredibly inspirational to read the posts of this community, written with intelligence and grace, the wisdom of long experience, and amazingly good humor as the institution crumbles about them. As I prepare to leave, I now know that I would love to stay and work with these people. Whatever happens here, this is the USM that I will always remember. And this is the USM that the rest of you, tired as you are, have to keep fighting for.
I, too, am discouraged. I sat at the computer yesterday for hours and composed a letter to the website expressing all of my frustrations. At the end, I apologized for being self-indulgent and then just tore it up (well, in a virtual sense) and sobbed. I was at wit's end because so many members of the website who have been my internet "friends" for months, fighting the same cause, are now saying that Tim Hudson is a viable option as an Interim President.
How can people who talk about wanting USM to be a high quality institution even consider letting the King of Schlock take over. How can people who talk about how we need integrity in the dome even consider the Master Deceiver? When one of my favorite posters said something like "I think he could serve honorably as interim" I screamed aloud in outrage - "Hudson" and "honor" are mutually exclusive terms.
Another poster for whom I have respect started framing every anti-Hudson post as a pro-Thames or pro-Dvorak argument and labeling the posters as such.
I feel that what has been my one source of solace over these past couple months has started cannibalizing itself.
I'm tired; my health is suffering; I am no longer seeing a path through this mess. What a horrendous waste of potential...
Elliot- You bring up an important point that not only is the University affected by the faculty who are leaving, but it is also affected by the faculty who are staying. When those who are staying do not feel comfortable working in their own offices it does affect the "community" of the campus. Let's just hope that Shelby's days are numbered and when he is gone the damage can somehow be reversed.
Kindred Spirits (elliot, Cleansweep and Foot Soldier,
I must state, that I feel the same. It IS depressing coming to work and watching STF ruin USM. I agree with CLEANSWEEP, so much potential from the faculty and staff we currently have (or used to have). It will take years to rebuild the status and reputation this fine university once had. I've already interviewed at an out of state university and I'm waiting to hear from the search committee to see if I got the position.
quote: Originally posted by: Cleansweep " Another poster for whom I have respect started framing every anti-Hudson post as a pro-Thames or pro-Dvorak argument and labeling the posters as such. I feel that what has been my one source of solace over these past couple months has started cannibalizing itself. "
Cleansweep,
I'm the one who identified certain anti-Hudson posters as pro-Dvorak.
It turned that that Quiet-but-Perceptive was willing to defend Mark Dvorak's performance, though QbP does prefer Russ Willis as Director of HR.
Meanwhile, Curious (who participated on the now closed thread about Angie and her not being admitted to the bar, but is not a Hudson critic) continues to defend Angie Dvorak's performance.
Neither of them defends Thames' performance, though Curious continues to argue in favor of Thames'"vision" for USM.
As for Otis, JC, ???, and DAZED & CONFUSED, they've all vanished, and I think they can fairly be described as trolls.
I didn't say that you were pro-Dvorak or pro-Thames; I haven't claimed that several other anti-Hudson posters were either. From what I have been able to learn about Hudson, he doesn't deserve the support of anyone on this message board.
On the other hand, some posters have tried to exploit opposition to Tim Hudson in order to promote his present rivals for power, the most prominent of whom is... Angie Dvorak.
Trolls are going to keep visiting this board, and over time those who make the attempt will become far more sophisticated than the crude spewers of insults who first showed up here. And the worse it gets for Thames and his crew, the more frequent visits from trolls are likely to become.
Don't let a sign of the board's success get you down.
The sad reality is this: no matter which side of this controversy you take, you have to acknowledge the horrific personal damage that has been done by this administration--from fine people like Carl Martray, who were able to leave immediately, to staff who were pushed around like pawns during the great office shift last spring, to those caught in the enrollment debacle, to administrators who have tried to leave, to G/S, and to all of us. All have been seriously hurt. I love teaching. I admire and respect my colleagues. I love my research. I had come to love this university. Today it seems like all is lost. No one wants to come to school. We do it because we care about our students and about our projects. Personally, I dread next fall because I have no hope that it will be better.
quote: Originally posted by: elliott " From where I sit, in my newly configured home office where I am once again working on a project I am excited about, there's little hope of that. "
Elliot, I am at my home office and increasingly find the piece and quiet that alludes me a USM. No need to go to the office at USM. I do not wish to be a part USM. It is embarassing to know I work there.